I just noticed that my attention has been siphoning off to facebook and it’s been a month since I’ve written anything. That kinda makes me sad.
The big news is that I’ve been interviewing like a madman. Constantly on the phone talking to recruiters, talking to companies in many different states, selling my house, and spending a ton of time with my family, which has been really nice.
We’ve also had some bad news lately. My wife’s grandmother passed away. It’s been very difficult for everyone in her family to deal with. Hell, it’s hard for me to deal with. I constantly feel like I can’t really feel anything at all because any minute of any day I could be on the phone trying to get a job and that requires that I’m upbeat and ready to go. I’ve had a few days where I’ve been able to let everything soak in and it’s not fun.
I’m pretty far down the road with one particular opportunity and hope it comes to fruition soon. This massive amount of uncertainty has been trying…
The time I get with my new boy Miles helps me let go and forget all the problems swirling around us right now. He’s such a great source of love for me. Before I left to interview out of state, I had a quiet moment with him and told him I wouldn’t let him down.
It seems like someone knocked everything in my life up in the air and nothing has landed. I know this will all settle down and we’ll be okay but it’s getting hard to keep up this positive attitude with so many unknowns.
When anything becomes a new constant in my life, I’ll post about it here first, instead of facebook. Deal?
Because of Apple’s legendary silence (lack of communication), the burgeoning iPhone developer community is wondering aloud why Apple isn’t allowing background apps to exist on their phone. Mike Ash has a great breakdown and why Apple’s current argument just doesn’t add up.
Jon Gruber is happy to explain from an unknown source of authority that the reason for this is that Apple is trying to maximize battery life and performance.
I would be willing to believe that if I could simply apply that theory to the existing Apple-made apps on the iPhone when it comes to battery life. I have noticed a slow decrease in battery life in my iPhone after each update. It has led me to believe that I just need to leave the Brightness down to barely 1/4 of the way up all the time. Also, I would LOVE to see the realtime performance of MobileMail because as far as I can tell, it’s the buggiest app on the phone. It has no ability to understand what “manual” checking for mail really means. Whenever I’m stuck in the endless pit of individually deleting 100 messages in one session, Mail will happily recheck for new messages every so often despite the fact that I’ve never instructed it to do so. Guess what that untimely check counts as? A background process that I’m sure is killing the battery on my phone. The other mind-numbing void on the phone is voice notes. I can’t understand at all why this simple idea escaped Apple.
Just found a great TED conference talk by Stefan Sagmeister in which he showed a slide of some of the things he’s learned over the years by keeping diaries. I’ll share them with you here:
- Complaining is silly. Either act or forget.
- Thinking life in the future will be better is stupid, I have to live now.
- Being not truthful works against me.
- Helping other people helps me.
- Organizing a charity group is surprisingly easy.
- Everything I do always comes back to me.
- Drugs feel great in the beginning and become a drag later on.
- Over time I get used to everything and start taking it for granted.
- Money does not make me happy.
- Traveling alone is helpful for a new perspective on life.
- Assuming is stifling.
- Keeping a diary supports my personal development.
- Trying to look good limits my life.
- Worrying solves nothing.
- Material luxuries are best enjoyed in small doses.
- Having guts always works out for me.
God how I loved Evel Knievel. As a young boy I initially thought he was fictional. Later on I realized he was a real guy who was on the fast track to superhero-dom. I had the jumping toy, watched him on TV, and just felt so inspired by his insanely stupid yet important heroic deeds. Recently I watched a cable biography of the man and realized what a bastard he was in his real life. Nevertheless, I still revere his acts of courage as pure greatness. Even though he failed several times attempting fantastic stunts, his will to get up and try it was staggering. He looked death in the eye over and over during statistically impossible long life and always ended up saying I’ll be back. What a sad thing. I watched some of his jumps on YouTube and cringed after every one. You would think that after his injuries he’d just say forget it I can’t take anymore but instead he would pray every night and ask God for the chance to try again. To stand alone. To do what made himself feel alive.
Sometimes when my mind wanders, I play this game where I imagine that for 1 day, no harm could come to me no matter what I did. I would try to think of the wildest stuff I could do knowing I’d feel no pain and just get up and walk around again. Jumping off buildings, driving off cliffs, standing in front of moving trains, etc. My body would get thrown all over the place but I’d just stand up and find something else to do. I imagine that’s similar to Evel Knievel. To me, thinking those thoughts is simply a creative exercise. Learning to keep my mind open to any thought and exploring my imagination. I think Evel helped give me that. I use it every day with my work and in that setting, I try my best to have no fear. Any idea can work. It just takes someone willing to dream and stand behind it.